Life et. al.
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I met with HappyFace yesterday to review my meds and we decided to take me completely off meds 🙂 I am so happy that I don’t have to worry about depending on chemicals to sustain the little bit of sanity left. I had started to notice the SSRIs inducing a sense of apathy in every single aspect of life. While this was very good for stress issues, it also meant that I was not getting even a little bit bothered about the results of any of my actions. I still have no remorse about my quals results. That cannot be good. Anyways, lets see how not being on medication works out.
Last night I got a call from my sister and she was crying her heart out. Looks like the troubles in my father’s business are starting to permeate into the family situation and she tells me that for the last 3 months my mom, dad, and she have been pretty much having a daily yelling contest. This worries me a lot. I know my father is incapable of segmenting his life and leaving work problems at work. What makes it worse is that he kinda takes everyone for granted and it is often his way or the highway when it comes to family stuff. My mother is very emotional to start with and is easily affected by every little thing. My sister is going through a rough patch herself. She is having to deal with office politics for the first time in her life and her friends are starting to move away leaving her without an external support system. All these have culminated in the gigantic mess that is my family right now. I spent 4+ hrs on the phone last night talking to my sis and mom and doing the best I can to smooth things a bit. I need to have a talk with my dad and I am *so* not looking forward to that.
On the personal side of things, I think I am starting to develop feelings for a friend of mine. She is going through a bad divorce and I am helping her in some small way. I know that she just considers me as a good friend and nothing more. I guess its a good thing that I am able to detect these things early enough to avoid major pitfalls. In other news, I am starting to have dreams about my ex-gf pretty much on a daily basis.
