SEPTEMBER 24TH, 2007
By PSEUDOSANITY
My sis is getting married!!!!!!!! After a nearly never-ending groom hunt, they finally found someone who fits all of her requirements and satisfies the family’s expectations. The engagements is going to be towards the end of October and the wedding in early December! I so excited for her and so very happy. She has gone through a lot and she deserves a really nice guy.
SEPTEMBER 21ST, 2007
By PSEUDOSANITY
[Image from orwell.ru]
If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you,
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or being lied about, don’t deal in lies,
Or being hated, don’t give way to hating,
And yet don’t look too good, nor talk too wise:
If you can dream – and not make dreams your master;
If you can think – and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you’ve spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build ’em up with worn-out tools:
If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breathe a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: ‘Hold on!’
If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
‘ Or walk with Kings – nor lose the common touch,
if neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you,
If all men count with you, but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds’ worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that’s in it,
And – which is more – you’ll be a Man, my son!
SEPTEMBER 19TH, 2007
By PSEUDOSANITY
[Image from Hugh Macleod]
So, I have a new person in my life. I am going to call her M.A.D. based on her initials for now. We met online and have been dating for just over a month now. Even though I really like her, and we are dating each other exclusively (at least as far as I know), I am not quite ready to call her my Girlfriend. I am not quite sure why. We hang out with each other whenever our schedules allow; the sex is amazing; we have a lot in common; our perceptions of life are close; yet I cannot get myself to call her my girlfriend. Maybe I am fretting over nothing. I mean, just coz we have been dating for a while does not mean there is a relationship. This begs the question, when does one cross over from “dating” to “relationship?”
SEPTEMBER 2ND, 2007
By PSEUDOSANITY
[Image: Die Screaming by Keith Williams]
- My dad got served with a legal notice about some loan that he has defaulted on. This is creating huge unrest in the family unit. I feel so helpless.
- My sis is so worried and flustered that she has not been able to sleep for the last 2 days. She was up till 3 AM just to catch me online, so that she could just pour her heart out. She is going through exactly what I was going through in December of 2003. I know it is worse than hell. I need to find a way out of this for her.
- My mom is all upset that my father has been mistreating and insulting her and my sis in the presence of other relatives. She is on the verge of a nervous breakdown. I just know it.
- I am going to have a conversation with my dad tomorrow and lay down the law. It is not going to be civil, let alone pleasant for either of us. I am a total ass. I should have done this a long time ago. I am going to tell him that I am going to get mom and my sis over here if things don’t change instantaneously.
JULY 23RD, 2007
By PSEUDOSANITY
[Image from bluesimage]
I *think*I have found a new place to stay. Applications have been submitted, and am waiting to hear back from them on whether I got approved or not. Fingers crossed.
My current roommate wants my help moving his stuff to his new apartment. Yah right. I told him I will help him, but I totally plan on going back on my words just hours before his move. Evil, yes. Satisfying, yes.
I was incredibly mean to my parents this weekend. They had called thrice, and all three times I was a mean SOB. I should call and make nice to them later this weekend. I cannot help being mean/rough when they accuse me of things that were precipitated by their actions. They are mega-pissed that I will not be graduating any time soon and help them out financially. Well, I would have graduated by now had I not taken up a year and half long internship! I had to stick to the internship coz I was sending home nearly $2500 each freakin month. Tell me of one other student who earned nearly $70,000 at an internship, had a RA all along, and is still more than $25,000 in debt. They cannot have their cake and eat it too. Also, how the fuck am I responsible for all the money that my dad keeps losing in his business. Seriously, its been 4 years since he started this thing and it is yet to show any signs of generating revenues. Why am I being penalized for his failures? I am 28 and tittering on the verge of bankruptcy for his mistakes. It just isn’t fair.
Fuck this. I am going to my office and immersing myself in mind numbing routine work.
JULY 17TH, 2007
By PSEUDOSANITY
[Image from Magic Artwork]
You might recall that I had mentioned that I have to move out of my apartment by the end of the month. My roommate and I had decided that we will just look for another 2 bedroom apartment near the University. We spent the last couple of weeks arduously scouting for a new place, and all of them were rejected for one reason or other. Today he tells me that he wants to move in with some other friends of his since he does not want to spend time hunting for apartments anymore. He says he is too lazy to do this. His words, not mine. WTF? I understand it is his right to move in where ever he wants, but he should have told me about this a long time ago. With just 2 weeks to go before getting thrown out and with a week of travel already scheduled, I now have to go find a place for myself. I always knew he was a selfish oaf, but this level of self centered attitude astounds me.