I have been fighting with this idea of leaving QoH for another advisor. If I stay with him, I probably will finish my PhD in about a year and half’s time.That is ofcourse assuming I get some funding from somewhere. If I leave him, I add 2 years to the time line, but there is a chance that I would be happier. I am not sure how the tradeoff between 2 years, happiness, and funding works. I would go with my gut instinct, but that freakin thing changes every hour.

I met with my therapist earlier this week. We spent the whole hour talking about this. She thinks that I should quit QoH. She was suggesting that I might be doing a lot of harm to myself by putting up with these stress levels. I guess the last straw for her was the fact that I had QoH’s voice in my head for 3 days saying “I dont know how to keep you around if new funding does not come in” over and over and over and over again. She is right from a mental health perspective, but I am not sure if temporary insanity is a good enough a tradeoff for 2 more years of school.

I am confused. As always.