A New Start
I have nearly decieded on to make a fresh start to my career, my life, my priorities, everything. I am not happy with myself right now, neither am I happy with the way things are going at work. I have lost that sense of purpose and accomplishment in life. Infact, I think I have seized to live and am just existing. I need a fresh start.
I am going to take an year of extended leave of absense from my PhD and go home. While there, I will start my own coffee shop. It will be a nice and cozy but spacious, trendy but not pretentious, friendly place for people to hang out. I have a few ideas on it already. I have to convince my father that this is a good thing, and I am not being an idiot about this, and I will be on my way.
I was discussing this with my roommate earlier today. He thinks, that I might be depressed and may be acting out of frustration. He does not know that I have been depressed for over 5 months now but this does bring up an interesting point. May be I am being an ass about all this, and should just shut the fuck up and continue with my life. On the other hand, I have never taken any risks in my life so far, and the ones I have always repented have been the ones I havent taken. I dont want this to be one more thing in that list. So what if I screw up? I will be bankrupt at 27. There is plenty of time to get out of that, isnt there? At the bare minimum, I will be happy that I did something with my life.
Maybe I need to go see my therapist the first thing in the morning. I need to know that I am not delluding myself and this is not some wierd phase that I am going through.
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By Nopostonsundays, October 17, 2005 @ 8:34 pm
I don’t think it could be wise to take advice from a stranger online, but I’d like to offer a comment or suggestion.
Be an entrepreneur. I personally think that working for someone else is nowhere near working for myself. Even if my pay is alittle less, there is always the rush, and the control.
And you have to remember that its better bankrupting in your 20s than being laid off and bankrupting in your 40s. Now, the term “job security” is a thing of the past.
Try, and if you fail, you can still get up. The world needs more coffee, and you’re gonna be the one to give it to them.
By RageyOne, October 17, 2005 @ 10:43 pm
If you have a passion for the coffee shop, I say go for it! Ultimately you only have yourself to please.
By admin, October 25, 2005 @ 3:53 am
Move to my town please. I’ve been wanting to open such a place but too afriad to do it on my own. please move here, market value is great