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Its official now. I am clinically depressed. I met with my therapist this afternoon, and she confirmed it. She now wants me to go meet someone at my university health clinic to see if I should be medicated. I am usually averse to treating anything with chemicals, but I am making an exception with this one. I am just done being sad and worried all the time. At this point I am ready to try anything. Lets see how things go.
I met with QoH for review/status check. He was like, “What the hell is wrong with you, and why arent you working anymore?” I had no answer to that. Felt like crap. People in the past have critized my work, but never the lack of it. How do I tell him that I am not enthusiastic about work anymore? How do I tell him that nothing in life is exciting for me? How do I tell him that irrespective of how much I want to be productive, I just cant? Oh fuck.
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By Anastasia, August 29, 2005 @ 11:24 pm
i feel the same way about medication, but I think you should make an exception, for the short term. It can help get things rolling in the right direction.
By Vixen, August 30, 2005 @ 4:16 am
I understand how you feel about drugs, pseudo. I’m starting to think I may need some to avert my looming mental breakdown.
By admin, August 31, 2005 @ 7:51 pm
pseudo, pls try the drugs. I felt the same way, and still do. I stuggle with being embarrased about it and not being able to work things out myself. But the drugs I started this summer have honestly helped. I still have my share of bad days and even had to go up in dosage but I’m a lot less explosive than usually whihc helps me get stuff done. As for your QoH, Just say that you know you’re work isn’t up to par, you’re sorry and you’ll keep pushing on. Don’t get into all the other junk and it buys you time to figure things out. Good luck